Perhaps Immersed in paralyzing thought, my heartbeat gently rocks me. I forcefully separate myself from my surroundings, sinking into a deliberate position , abused, for its ability to numb my body & senses. My eyes go dry provoking a sensation I take a while to process. I close them, granting them the moisture they require. Immediate concerns diminish. Physical & spiritual pain fall nonexistent. Circulation slows and adjusts to an altered state of consciousness.Not conscious enough to feel.Not unconscious enough to give way to trivial dream scenarios.- Minutes go by.- Perhaps Hours.An awareness best described as close to the feelings